journal

I’ve been reading a lot of puppy Soap lately, and it’s been really good. I don’t know why I’m so drawn to happy, loyal, loving figures. Probably because I’m not one.

I’ve been thinking about making a fic rec page, but I just don’t have the time right now. I will, though. One day. I’m already saving the fics for later.

Today I saw a list of the most popular ships on AO3. Fuck whoever put Harry Potter in there. People are ghouls.

I finally cut my hair. It had gotten so long, and I was feeling awful about it.

I drove for eight hours today. I am completely destroyed.

I spent a little time with my partner, and now I’m just going to sleep early.

I also took some pictures today. I felt good about them, at least for a bit.

After spending a full day with my new phone, I felt a bit of buyer’s remorse, even though I still love it.

The day itself was pretty uneventful. I mostly slept, browsed, and ate.

At least I got to spend some time with my partner. We’ve been watching A Series of Unfortunate Events, and it’s been really fun.

Today I finally took the plunge and bought the Galaxy Z Fold 7. I have absolutely zero self-control when I see a cool new piece of tech. The whole process of transferring everything and logging back into every app was stressful, but having it brand new — and having such a cool-ass phone — feels really nice.

It was insanely expensive, though. I swear I’m crazy. I just cannot be trusted around new tech.

I had pizza. I had fried chicken. Overall, it was a pretty good day, and I’m glad about that.

I was stuck in traffic for almost three hours, though, and that fucking sucked.

I literally slept all day today. I ate way too much at lunch — I probably shouldn’t have, but I did anyway. Later, my family and I went to the mall. I saw a Galaxy Z Fold 7 and instantly fell in love with it. Now I can’t stop thinking about owning one, even though my S24 Ultra is already a really good phone. So, of course, it’s time to obsessively search for it. Most stores were closed because it was Sunday, but I did end up eating Chinese food, which was actually pretty fun.

I met a new friend, and he’s kind of a lot. It’s okay, though. I think I need more friends. Still, all I really want is to go home and use my PC, play my games — either with my partner or alone. I miss my partner a lot, especially since I can’t call them while I’m staying in this apartment.

While I was sleeping during the day, I had a dream where I hooked up with a guy. He was actually really cute in the dream. I kind of want my brain to pick that dream back up the next time I fall asleep.

I haven’t been thinking much about suicide lately, which is nice. I am feeling nervous about the new year, though. Wanting to get better as a New Year’s resolution feels so cliché, to be honest.

So I made a website. Why? I don’t really know, I just felt like it. I’m not sure what else I’ll add here yet, but I’ll try to keep it consistent and make it mean something.

At least I know my journal will live here.

Today was annoying. I got into an argument about food with my family, and because of that I didn’t eat anything all day. I ended up staying on my laptop in this apartment, doing nothing except trying to work on this website.