Hello! My name is Mikey. I’m a 28-year-old gay guy, a stupid puppy (affectionately), an imp friend, and a longtime Neopian. I’m made of fixations, interests, contradictions, and a handful of things that make living harder than it should be.
I live with depression, avoidant personality disorder, BPD, and some form of body dysmorphia. Together, they make motivation unreliable, relationships complicated, and everyday life exhausting. I often feel difficult to live with or hard to understand, even when I know that perception isn’t always fair or stable.
I don’t listen to music much. I prefer silence. When I do listen to music, it’s usually upbeat electronic or heavy metal.
Video games are one of the few places where my brain settles. I built my own PC, and I’m proud of it. I also own a Nintendo 3DS, a SNES, a PS2, and a Switch. The Switch was a gift from my partner the first time we met in person, which makes it especially important to me.
I’m in a long-distance relationship with my partner. We live in different countries, which is hard, but we make it work. These days we mostly play co-op games together. We’re both puppies, doing our best. I also have a brother named Trooper. We’re a small family of puppies, trying to survive.
I like CRPGs, and I sometimes play League of Legends with friends. I hate that game, but with the right people it can still be fun. Lately, I care more about shared time than competition.
Recently, I’ve been into making a website. I’m not entirely sure why. I don’t make art, but I do write sometimes, and that feels nice. One of my favorite things is the Ghost and Soap pairing from Call of Duty. I write about them occasionally and collect a lot of art of them. It matters to me, even if I can’t fully explain why.
In my sidebar, you’ll see John “Soap” MacTavish, the handsome soldier from Call of Duty. I like him for more than just his skills on the battlefield. There’s something about his loyalty, bravery, and quiet confidence that makes him stand out. He’s the kind of character who can handle chaos without losing himself, and I admire that.
I’m not very functional, not especially confident, and not particularly stable—but I care deeply. About stories, about people, and about the things that make life feel a little more bearable.
